Grief,
What if grief is based on your belief system? Some people have a belief that they must grieve a loss forever with the same intensity as the first day of their experiencing grief. Others have a belief that grief loses its sting after a while, and it is okay to be okay about loved ones […]
Moral and immoral.
There are thousands of spiritual and religious teachings which dictate morality and demand that each being behave within certain rules and perform specific practices to maintain these morals. My difficulties started when I noted the many differences between the teachings, and I decided to doubt all of them. My saving grace came when I personally […]
The fruitless pair.
Shame and guilt lasting more than a few minutes are a fruitless pair. Guilt is simply my indicator that I have an opportunity to check my thinking and find the why behind my guilt. Shame is a self-centered and selfish advocate of continuing to berate and disgust myself. Guilt is simply my reaction to going […]
Annoyance.
I used to take pride in being annoyed by other people, places, things, situations, institutions, and principalities. However, in my arrogance I became judgmental, resentful, prideful, angry, and hateful. I experienced other people as my lowest form, and I received that which I did not prefer. I created consequences which I disliked, and I found […]
Knowing myself.
I have spent many years trying to create myself into someone who would be acceptable to all people. The thing I failed to understand is that I first needed to accept me, as I am in this present and generous moment, and then all others would accept me. I have also discovered that when I […]
Fever of life.
I did not understand this concept at first and then as I tried to hurry through the meditation readings it occurred to me. Hurry is a symptom of the fever of life. How else would I recognize the fever of life? It is in the subtle things, the tension in my jaw, clinching my fist, […]
Prep work.
I need to share more about the preparation which comes before the work. In my past I had experienced many days of annoyance, frustration, anger, rage, sarcasm, anxiety, depression and even suicidal thoughts. Today I choose to live in happiness, joy, and serenity. The shift happens over time. Reading of books, watching many videos, documentaries, […]
Being the Joy.
In my past I have been the comedian, the intimidator, the bully, the antagonist, and the coward. I found no joy in any of those personas. In fact, it was because I would not take the time or do the work to align myself with the Divine will for my life that I took on […]
Spiritual growth.
I have come to find that true humility is the main foundation on which spiritual growth occurs. I used to stand on the moral high ground trusting in my religiosity and my arrogance. I eventually found it to be a scary and lonely place. I found humility through a moral inventory of myself during which […]
Self-appreciation and responsibility.
For many years of my life, I desired others appreciation and when I did not receive it, I would blame others for not seeing how wonderful and amazing I am. This was rooted in and continued to feed a false ego. Hoping that I could feel better inside based on what others outside of me […]
