No matter what
I am reminded that the Divine design for my life will play out. I have free will in how I participate in that design. I was meant to be sober; however, I continued to drink even as the indications that I needed to stop got stronger. I would feel the remorse, guilt, shame, self-hatred after […]
The greatest friend
I am reminded how my concept of God dictates my relationship with others. When I lived in fear of God, I was in the mindset of competition in which I needed to be better than others so I would be judged as such and earn my way into heaven. Over many years my conception of […]
Greatest gift
In my experience the greatest gift I received was the humility. When I first got sober, I was so relieved that I felt I needed to tell everyone about my sobriety. Part of my maturing process was to overshare the harrowing details of my life and in so doing I hurt many people. Eventually I […]
Childlike
This morning’s readings encouraged me to continue to be childlike. Without hate, judgement, ego and fear. Allowing myself to be trusting, peaceful, kind, accepting, grateful, and full of wonder. I am reminded how the kingdom of heaven is a state of being. When I believe the Creator has given each of us the capacity to […]
Calm
The readings reminded me of the power of inner calm. In my past I have lived in frustration, depression, anxiety, rage, anger, and hatred. I experienced, indigestion, shortness of breath, obesity, rheumatoid arthritis, lower back problems and the like. During this journey, I have discovered how to release myself from the mindset which caused each […]
All or nothing
The readings reminded me of the dangers of all or nothing thinking. I have participated in this type of thinking to the point of creating beliefs based in all or nothing. I have believed my sports teams were the best no matter their record. I believed my religion was the one true one regardless of […]
Recovery, unity, service
In the readings today, I am reminded that these are the three legacies of AA. However, I have highjacked them to be the foundation of my daily life. Today I understand these three to be the Divine design for my life. I have discovered how being willing to maintain my recovery, live in acceptance of […]
learn
The readings this morning reminded me, I am in this life to learn. I have gone through many lessons, some more difficult than others. However, one reason for the lessons is to turn around and pass along to others what I learned. I have tried this in many forms and the best lesson I have […]
Humility
The readings this morning brought a reminder how my happiness comes from humility. My experiences showed me how my humility was forged through arrogance, hatred, rage, depression, anxiety, and the over exaggerated ego I created to cover my fear. The life I created through each and all of those defenses ended with a desire to […]
Timing
I am reminded how everything has a time and place. I have many memories of when I would embarrass myself because I tried to rush into a situation when I had no idea what was going on. I have tried starting relationships when I was not ready for any type of commitment. I have interviewed […]
