When I first got sober, I had experienced such a moving spiritual wakening that I believed I was able to live sober without others.
As it turns out, I was relieved of the desire and obsession for alcohol, however, I was not instantly aware of how to live life as a sober person.
I have been an active participant of AA for over 33 years now and I have learned many things about me.
I have displayed narcissistic tendencies, lived in deep shame, experienced many distorted beliefs, felt crippling anxiety, dived into deep depression, raged in hatred, cried into the darkest of nights, and crumbled to the ground due to emotional breakdowns.
Fortunately, I had others whom I could and would call to talk through what I was experiencing.
I have attended thousands of meetings, had multiple sponsors, gone to therapy, and shared my story.
I have done the inventories and learned the why behind my unbalanced responses to life.
I have created new healthier beliefs and tuned those up through conversations with others who have had the same experiences.
Others have helped me move from self-hatred to self-love.
I only needed a willingness to be honest and to share what I was experiencing and a desire to make the changes no matter what.
May each of you allow yourself the gift of sharing with others your life experiences.
You are Love and Loved.
