This morning’s meditation.
Mature and reasonable.
These are not attributes I possessed until I became willing.
I had a long history of emotional immaturity.
I mean I did grow up, held, jobs, built a career, had and raised kids, paid my bills, and took care of all of my adult responsibilities.
And I could still act out as a child in certain areas of my life.
Most of my acting out was completely logical to me in my mind, as crazy as it was, I still believed it made sense.
Until I was found out and my behaviors hurt all the people, I said I loved.
It was then I became willing to change.
Through therapy, increased AA and Al-anon meetings and yet another moral inventory I got honest and discovered what beliefs I held about myself which needed to change.
Over the years I have changed my beliefs about myself and I have matured emotionally.
I am happier, more content, peaceful, and I appreciate life as it is today.
I am mature and my reactions to life have become reasonable.
I no longer hurt other people, especially the ones I love.
May each of you allow yourself the willingness to change.
You are Loved.
