I am reminded how many of my beliefs had been limiting my growth and awareness.
When I had exciting spiritual experiences as a child, I remember feeling euphoric.
As a teenager I would hold back my excitement out of fear that people would think I was crazy.
When I first got sober, I felt so good I thought everyone needed to hear about that spiritual awakening. So, I told as many people as possible. Many of them just gave me that faint smile and moved on with their lives, never to speak to me again.
As I got older, I discovered how my type of preaching tended to shut people down so I would change how I brought up my sobriety, but I made damn sure I got to talk about my recovery.
Eventually I heard something about narcissistic tendencies and I felt hurt.
I discovered how all my “teaching others” about recovery had been rooted in my ego.
I built barriers through sharing about recovery through my ego.
I needed to learn humility and how to create a heart for service.
When I begin each day with the intention of entering each experience with empathy, compassion, honesty, understanding, acceptance, appreciation, kindness, peace and Love: then I have a heart for service.
It is through pure intentions that the barriers have been broken down.
Today I listen, share if asked, and remain willing to be of service.
Today I can have spiritual awakenings and experiences without having to force others to hear about them.
I remain open to be of service to others.
May each of you find how to break down your barriers.
You are Loved.
