Abiding peace
This is the one thing I have always desired. I spent years chasing the feeling of peace. I tried to find this peace through relationships, jobs, religion, alcohol, sex, and other activities. However, I never felt true peace until I let go of the conditions, I placed around receiving peace. I thought that peace had […]
Grace in all things.
Whatever you call the Divine Love which I choose to call God, grace is always available to you through calling out to God. I have experienced the times of falling to my knees in agony and crying out for help, yet those days are past. Presently, calling out for me is to begin my day […]
It’s in how you think.
I am reminded that I have a choice in how I view myself and the world around me. My old beliefs would have me thinking I am to short, old, slow, clumsy, fat, dumb, and ugly. These brought me to insecurity to which I created defenses against others who I believed made me feel inadequate […]
From within outward
I am reminded this is the process of change. I must first change within myself before anything outside of me will change. During one inventory, the pattern of my relationships it was pointed out to me. As we spoke about the pattern the only common denominator was me and my unhealthy responses to others. In […]
Alone but not lonely
I am reminded how the connection between humans can be so strong that even those who choose to live alone need not be lonely. Finding your connection to others, speaking up for yourself, letting your desires be known without embarrassment or fear. When I was single, I needed to get out of the loneliness mindset […]
Beast and angel.
I am reminded how my willingness to change was created by the consequences of my beastly behaviors. I have had many transgressions, and I have been through some consequences. I repeated some of the behaviors which brought me negative consequences because I failed to take responsibility and accountability for my actions. When I had brought […]
Preferred
I am reminded how I get to create that which I do prefer. However, I first needed to experience that which I did not prefer; to create a desire for the preferred life. In my case the largest transitions in my beliefs came from my drinking and then from my adultery. I say my beliefs […]
In this moment
I am reminded how this moment is the only true existence. Yesterday has past and tomorrow does not exist, only this present and generous moment is available to me. It is in this one moment that I get to choose my mindset, and I get to respond to life as opposed to reacting to life. […]
Hate and Love
I am reminded how I cannot hate anyone and Love God at the same time. I used to think this lesson meant if I hated anyone God would condemn me to some fiery pit somewhere. What I have come to learn is that when I love other humans, I am Loving God. When I love […]
Serving what I choose to call God.
I am reminded how I can be a good servant. I used to think I was being a servant to some far away master, and I was always trying to figure out what I was supposed to do to keep the master happy. I have learned how serving others is serving what I choose to […]
