What can I bring?
I am reminded I am a free man. I get to go anywhere and do anything I choose. I used to be very concerned with what I would get out of every experience. I was self-centered, self-concerned, and selfish. After I got sober, I was concerned with how others would see me. I would be […]
Change through consistency.
I have long held the belief that maintaining the same routine each day makes me happy. It has served its purpose. I have discovered how change makes me much happier. I have found through routine moral inventories I get to change what no longer serves my highest good. When my physical progress stagnates, I change […]
From difficulties to joy.
I am reminded how each difficulty, tragedy, problem or horrible situation can be a starting point for joy. I recall believing every bad thing was a punishment and it meant I was a bad person, getting what I deserved. As I have released those limiting beliefs, I have found how each experience was simply an […]
I am the first.
I am reminded how I am the first victim of my anger, resentment, hatred, frustration, annoyance, irritation, and pettiness. When I maintain those characteristics I create a lifestyle of judgement, fear, self-righteousness, and false pride. When I live out that lifestyle all others are affected by it, and I attract those who also suffer this […]
Tolerance works both ways
I am reminded how I get to believe however and whatever I choose to believe. Everyone else is also afforded that right. I used to hold the belief that my religion was the only way to connect to God and to be saved from eternal damnation. Fortunately for me I no longer need to hold […]
Gods will.
I am reminded of the human’s dependence upon God and how little many humans actually live out the will of God in their lives. So many times, I thought I was doing God’s will by judging and condemning others based on what I thought was God’s word. Then came the self-condemnation where I sent myself […]
Living right.
I remember when I believed that living right was following a set of rules and expectations set upon me by my elders and a church. I recall feeling frustrated and confused because I was not happy and I didn’t believe that I had to wait for some far-off reward to be given to me so […]
Integrity
I remember a time in my life when I had no idea what integrity was, and it showed. I would act differently in front of different people. In my early years of recovery, I had slowly integrated integrity, but then I continued to act certain ways when I was not around family. Eventually I created […]
No repayment needed
I used to get into service to others for the ego trip of thinking I was a great guy and hoped for others to applaud my efforts. Even in my recovery while working with newcomers and they would relapse or ask someone else to be their sponsor, I felt hurt. Eventually, I learned that feeding […]
Guilt cycle.
I remember riding the guilt cycle so far down into shame that I knew I was the worst person ever created, and no one could ever like me much less love me. It was a very self-centered shame, totally focused on me and how bad I was, and how no one could ever like me. […]
