Instruction vs destruction
Life experiences provide me with instruction or destruction. As I have gone through life, I have had many experiences which I believed told me I was a bad person and I lived in guilt and shame. I would work really hard to be a better person and try to prove I was a good person. […]
The strength
The readings this morning remind me of our connection to God. The birther of the cosmos, that which breathed life into all creation. It is through that connection that we receive the strength we need to grow into that which we were meant to be. We are uniquely equipped to live in duality to create […]
There is forgiveness
I have needed to unlearn the belief that I was born bad, and the belief I had fallen short. During this journey, I have discovered how the game of guilt and shame is a trap. It may have been intentioned get me to feel so bad that I would begin to obey some doctrine so […]
Allowing guidance
The readings this morning remind me that we are able to allow the Creator to guide us through each moment. I used to try and plan out how my life would work out. I even planned how I would feel when the plans worked out. I would connive, lie, cheat, steal, and manipulate to make […]
Stream of good
I am reminded of my choice to be in the stream of good. Many practices call it Gods will. I have gone through many experiences which brought me consequences. Some consequences I preferred and others I did not. After unlearning the guilt and shame response and replacing it with simple observations with no judgments of […]
It’s all for the good.
The readings remind me how every experience is for the good. I need only to take the time to review my experiences and be willing to learn the lessons of each one. This presents as impossible at the time of very painful experiences yet later on I can always learn the lesson. The beautiful part […]
You can do all things
I used to believe this meant I could be the president, or a billionaire, or some form of hero. Today’s reading reminded me this is about human relationships. I can do all things in human relationships when I am tuned into the frequency of God. Those I used to hate I can now appreciate. Those […]
No matter what
I am reminded that the Divine design for my life will play out. I have free will in how I participate in that design. I was meant to be sober; however, I continued to drink even as the indications that I needed to stop got stronger. I would feel the remorse, guilt, shame, self-hatred after […]
The greatest friend
I am reminded how my concept of God dictates my relationship with others. When I lived in fear of God, I was in the mindset of competition in which I needed to be better than others so I would be judged as such and earn my way into heaven. Over many years my conception of […]
Greatest gift
In my experience the greatest gift I received was the humility. When I first got sober, I was so relieved that I felt I needed to tell everyone about my sobriety. Part of my maturing process was to overshare the harrowing details of my life and in so doing I hurt many people. Eventually I […]
