I used to believe because my parents did, the church told me to, and the schools taught me what to believe in.
I tried my best to maintain the belief even when I was behaving in ways which broke almost every commandment told to me.
At some point I was simply acting as if I was doing everything right and then when I thought no one was looking I would go out and participate in another transgression.
Eventually I stopped doing anything because it got rid of the guilt I was putting on myself.
I stopped going to the church, I stopped hiding any behaviors, I stopped living in secret, and I discovered what I did prefer and what I did not prefer in my own life.
I have moved from childhood belief to midlife rebellion, to and deeper understanding of the Divine design for my life.
I have a clearer understanding of and belief in God.
I don’t need a church or parents to tell me what to believe. I am created in such a way that I get to learn what beliefs create my best life, and which ones cause me turmoil and strife.
Through a daily routine of setting my intentions, prayers of appreciation, affirmations, and meditation, I get to maintain a conscious awareness of and connection to God.
Ironically, I find myself living a life in which I do not break any of the commandments I learned as a child.
May each of you allow yourself the gift of an evolution of your faith.
You are Love and Loved.
