I am reminded how severely out of balance I was in my past.
When I was actively drinking my behaviors were “out of character” and when sober, the next day, I would live in guilt and shame over how horrible I was as a human being.
When I finally got sober and remained that way I continued some of my behaviors and would keep them a secret so no one would shame me.
Eventually I became so out of balance I ended a marriage and fell into my second dark night of the soul.
It was during that time I considered suicide and that I may be mentally ill.
Fortunately, I had an emotional breakdown which led me to seek therapy, increase my AA meetings and eventually join Alanon.
I completed my next moral inventory, shared it with my sponsor and my therapist and started this journey to joy and freedom.
I have long since returned to soundness of mind.
I have written about my journey every day and shared it willingly.
I deeply appreciate the difficulties, the triumphs, the let downs, and the ultimate understanding that everything in my life happens as it should for my greatest good.
May each of you find your soundness of mind.
You are Loved.
